one day i will dance this too

I don't think anything quite can come on par with the Black Swan Pas de Deux. One day, I WILL dance this and I WILL learn it and I would so want to perform it. That's a dream, that I wish would come true. I think this goes down as not a goal but as a wish that I want to come to fulfil. I sing this tune day and night, in the car, in the shower, when I'm dancing =D

food - that thing

Today I went to ********* library and spent the whole time looking at recipe books. Honestly, I am so obsessed with examining the way oil glistens on a beef bok choy stir fry or the gloss of meringue. This is an unhealthy obsession. Before you know it, you find yourself in the kitchen eating food all day long. I was supposed to be in the library looking for books to borrow but I ended up borrowing about 5 recipe books. One was a book about cupcakes =D

HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE. CUPCAKES.

I am the holy grail about all-about-cupcakes. Well, not really. You see, up until about a month ago, I had always found the idea of junk food a little disconcerting despite the fact that I eat it daily. The idea of eating fat and sugar disgusted me. Just think about it. Take 100g of saturated animal fat and mix it with sugar. Then as Eve wisely pointed out, THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT DELICIOUSLY YUMMY CUPCAKE ICING IS MADE OUT OF. =='

How could I be so dumb? butter + sugar = fat + sugar = FATNESS YOU IDIOTHEAD

So there upon my soul was a revelation indeed. It never occurred to me that of all the things I did know about cupcakes, which is basically that they are yummyyyyyy and are made out of flour, eggs, sugar and butter, I DIDN'T REALISE THEY FIT INTO MY FATNESS CATEGORY which they do now.

So I spent a rather large portion of my day examining every laser-printed image of these glorious little fat-cakes. If I were to write out a list of all the cupcakes I was interested in eating, you might as well eat the book. CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP

I have also come to be obsessed with lemon meringue. I have no idea why. I think I had a piece once in Year 7 or something when the cafateria was selling these mini ones. Anyway, I also spent time on taste.com searching pictures of FOOD

lemon meringue cupcakes

chocolate meringue tart

pizza - olives, rocket, tomato YUM

scones with cream and jam

the swans - both evil and good

There was a story:

A prince, heir to a great kingdom must declare a wife at a ball held in his honour on his birthday. In despair at not being able to marry for love, he escapes from the ball and into the forest. Seeing a flock of swans, he aims his crossbow at the creatures only to see that one of these creatures is in fact more woman than swan, simply dressed in white feathers. She reveals to him that she is the princess Odette and has been cursed by the sorcerer Von Rothbart so that she is swan by day and woman by night. Enamoured by her beauty, the two dance.

Quite simply, out of pity, he falls in love with Odette. As he swears his love, an act which would break the spell, Rothbart appears and the prince threatens to kill him. Odette stops him: if Rothbart is killed before the spell is broken, she is to remain a swan for eternity.

The Prince returns to his ball and Rothbart arrives in disguise with his daughter Odile who seduces the prince while pretending to be Odette. Thinking that she is Odette, he proclaims before everyone that he shall marry her but at this very moment, Rothbart shows him a magical vision of the real Odette and realises his mistake.

The prince returns to the lake and is forgiven by Odette. Rothbart appears appears and tries to separate the two lovers. The prince and Odette realise that because of his pledge to Odile, the spell can no longer be broken. Together, the two leap into Swan Lake and drown. Rothbart too dies for he no longer has power.

The prince fell for the wrong girl. They die.

bloch

today, i went to bloch and bought exam stuff. ballet shopping is so not guilt-free. despite the fact that i had a 20% discount because of this thing my school gave me, it pained me that my mum had to pay for all of it and even WITh a discount, it's massively expensive. i bought a :



- a black camisole leotard TEEHEE

- a bodystocking

- theatrical pink tights - oh yea



I love the leo. It's got these thick-ish straps and is a V-neck and a V/U shape at the back and it's still plain enough to wear in an exam. When I was in Bloch, I just felt like trying on a million things because everything is just so gorgeous and sleek and screaming 'BUY ME' but it's so expensive. The leo was originally $65 and the body stocking is $40 and the stockings are $30 something - mega expensive. There were all these cute little kids in the place getting tiny shoes fitted and these tiny pink tulle skirts. They reminded me of this trip I had to the Bloch in Miranda with my mum when I was probably 5 and getting something exactly like that and being on Cloud Nine for the rest of the week because I would only wear my pink skirt at home and nothing else, no not as in I was naked with a skirt on. =D



Well, being inspired by Veronica, I am going to make a practice tutu skirt. Yes, I am quitting ballet next year but I want to make one because it will be the closest I will ever get to owning a tutu. Besides, buying one would require being super rich, which I am not. There are different types of tutu skirts but the one I want to make is made of the stiffer tulle that sticks out. I really am describing this in non-elegant terms. Anyhow, the waist band is basically a really thick elastic which is inside a band of material. YIPEE. If I can't locate stiff tulle, then I'll get the tulle netting they have wherever and use that. I just really want to have one and since it's so expensive I am officially on Mission Tutu Making. Problems are having the sewing skills to make it (might get my mum to help me) and having to leave it until summer hols to have time to do it =(

To Veronica: When can we makee that glorious golden snitch cake????? I have been thinking about it and really really want to make it with you TEEHEE



Ballet brings thee joy. ;)

summer holidays

I absolultely CANNOT WAIT UNTIL SUMMER HOLIDAYS. The funny thing is that every summer holidays, I find myself thinking CANNOT WAIT UNTIL SCHOOL STARTS but reasons why:

- TIME everyday every damn week to do whatever i want whenever i want
- get to do random ballet every single second of the day when i feel like it
- no hw
- no exams
- NOTE: This is for practically two months *cries in joy*
- I will be following all the tourneys leading up to the Aus Open AND I WILL ACTUALLY BE ABLE TO WATCH IT AUS TIME ON TV - bliss
- blogging
- writing
- reading books - i really have missed that
- going out on outings hopefully
- New Year
- waking up to a sunny day, blue skies, sweet-smelling wind
- not having to wear sixty layers, but i'm not saying let's strip either
- wearing singlets, shorts, sandals
- going swimming
- going to random family barbeques where i don't know anyone and just stealing food
- SUNSHINE
- waking up and actually feeling alive; in winter, i kinda feel like a zombie
- hearing birds
- drinking smoothies every day
- eating ice cream
- eating vanilla ice cream with raspberries (must try if you haven't)
- orange juice
- salads (yes, i actually really like salads)
- TVVVVVVVVVVVVVVVV
- music
- iPod
- discovering things i randomly want to do
- writing in my diary again
- the cool sanctuary of home sweet home
- air conditioners
- i love you summer

back to life

and i am born once again. jeez. it seems strange to be blogging again. i actually have TIME. time is a wonderful thing. thing is, i have no idea how to spend it now